My life is like riding a rollercoaster. The ups and downs come just in a blink and I am not able to control it. At one moment I feel like I am the happiest girl alive and in just 1 second I turn out feeling so down and unmotivated. I guess I probably need a help.

So it has been a few weeks since the DC and if I could I dont want to say anything about it because it definitely could bring me tears. Theres too many things I've learnt and saying thank you will never be enough to show how I appreciate all the band members, and most of all, the coaches.

Today is Teacher's Day and 3 person who I think deserve my appreciation are Kak Yaa, Jann and Faris Asnawiiiiii. I first know Kak Yaa as Teacher Mea, a tuition teacher who teach me English, Jann and Faris are the person who in charge to train the percussionists. And why they deserve my biggest appreciation? Because they give advice like an excellent teacher, they care like a brother and a sister and at the same time we could play together like bestfriends wehuuu!

Enough.

As usual the only reason I write is not to tell a good thing. I write to feel better. Does anyone know how to overcome the feeling of being sooooooooooooo insecure and and and you feel like the world hates you and and and you think you will never achieve something good in your life? I feel that way. Every. Single. Day. And I hate myself even more than you do trust me I never feel good and all I can do is pretending.

I can't help myself for feeling so bad all the times :(

There's a lot more thing running in my mind but some things are better if we keep it all by ourselves right? Till we meet again, good bye human.