Isnt it feels good to wake up every morning beside someone who means the word to you?

Isnt it feels good to have someone who takes a good care of you?

Isnt it feels good to come back home and say “honeyyy im home!”

Isnt it feels good to have someone to cuddle at night after youre so tired working for the whole day?

But darling marriage is not only about all those sweet things, there are a lot more to think about. Amanah, tanggungjawab.  Rasa rasa mampu tak tanggung semua tu? That is what matter the most. Alah, takat nak sweet sweet bila bila pun boleh tapi bila sorang dah naik hantu boleh ke yang sorang lagi tu control the situation? Ke join mengamuk sekali? Ahahaha .

People now keeps saying about how good it is to get married at young age. Mhm, 20 years old is young. Umi keeps telling me “Umi umur ni dah kahwin dah. Umur 21 dapat kaki irah..” I know, her point is, she wants me to change my attitude. She wants me to grow up. I do know that.

Hm, kahwin awal, kahwin 4. Benda macam tu kita tak boleh fikir secara menyeluruh sebab it actually depends on one single person, and the spouse. What about me? I don’t really know actually. Im kind of numb thinking about these kind of thing because I have this kind of idea that nobody will ever accept me the way I am. I am the one with a lot of dark secrets you know. :P

“Apa ciri-ciri suami idaman kau?” Well I think that kind of question is funny, especially for myself. No I won’t make a list about how my future husband should looks like, or how he should behave because the most important thing is me, myself. Will I be able to be a good wife? It needs a really good preparation you know. Kalau dapat suami handsome baik romantic cemana pun kalau perangai isteri nauzubillah tak guna juga kan? Oh wait, at least he could be the one who could handle the beasty me. Ehehe.

Sometimes I wish I don’t have to get married sebab rasa macam, leceh lah. And plus it scares me. But then when I look at one happy family, I look at my parents, I look at cute little babies and that makes me think. One day Shahirah.. One day..

But after all, we all know that God always have a better plan for us. He know whats the best for His servant.  So lets put Him on the top. Love Him to the fullest.

Umi cakap, “Kak Irah dah boleh start cari calon ni. Umi tak kisah yang macam mana pun, duit takda takpa asalkan sembahyang cukup.” I got her point. She wants me to have someone who put the Lord first before anything else.

InsyaAllah Umi, kalau jodoh ada lah. Lambat lagi kot entah I don’t really care.