WHY DO PEOPLE HAVE TO LEAVE EACH OTHER?

After searching the book ‘Reclaim Your Heart’ for years, I finally bought it yesterday when I go out with the band members. It really worth my wait and the contents are as good as expected. The first topic catches my attention the most. Attachment. Since I am leaving Arau soon, I think this topic is one of the most suitable things to write about.

Not everyone knows that I am the one who is easily attached to people. I mean, once I like people I will be too attached to them. I don’t want to let them go no matter what. I will do anything to make our relationship the way it is before without even thinking that people do change, so does the situation. I used to think once someone means the world to me, the feeling will stay like forever. I cannot accept that people can lose feeling towards each other. I cannot accept that a bestfriend could lose the title. I cannot accept the fact that love could turn to hate just in a blink because for me love and relationship are serious matters. And that is how I set myself to be broken.

“Nothing happens without a purpose. Nothing. Not even broken hearts. Not even pain. That broken heart and that pain are lessons and signs for us. They are warning that something is wrong. They are warning that we need to make change.”-Yasmin Mogahed.

“Verily never will God change the condition of a people until they change what is within themselves.”-Qur’an, 13:11.

“And if the is one recipe for unhappiness it is that; expectation. My expectations were in people, relationship, means. Ultimately my hope was in this dunya rather than Allah.”-Yasmin Mogahed.

This book really speaks my mind. I was wrong. I thought I was doing my best my always be there when people need me. I thought by lending people my shoulders when they’re miserable could make them do the same when I feel down. I made a mistake by depending too much on people.

Losing people is normal. Things won’t always happen the way I want. And the only thing I can do is, give my all the one who is not changing and not temporary; Him. It is not that I don’t know about this before but me myself is one bad slave. I make mistakes and I need to change.

Time to leave is almost there. Some people doubt me. They wonder that I will forget them once I found better people to hang out with. I cannot promise anything. I won’t say that I will never ever forget them. I won’t tell that they will always be in my heart. Because you know what? Promises are bullshit. Some people sometimes keep promising without even trying to make it true. Trust me I learnt it hard way. But hey don’t worry, with God’s will, we will meet sooner or later. Don’t stop praying to best for me and I will do the same to you too okay?