Why we (girls) choose to build up the walls?

“Hi, I’d like to know more about you...”

Most girls will have butterflies in their stomach when a guy is trying to approach but for me, and some other girls who are just like me, the heart will filled with hatred. And many other unexplainable feelings.

“But hey come on it was just a joke!”

Yes, but you also need to know others nightmare is not a freaking joke. Girls usually can easily fall in love when some guy actually understands her. Like, yes, to be understood is the main thing we crave for and once we found that one guy, we tend to let the guard down. It’s not that we are being hypocrite by not being ourselves but we do put a border between the one we really, really, really close to and the one who is only a friend. Well, isn’t it normal?

When we are with that one particular person we decided to let him in, it’s like we have our soul naked.

“I trust him, and I am sure he is the one who understands me the most.”

“He knows who I actually am; there is no way he will leave.”

“He knows how I will suffer if he leave and I know he will never ever going to do that.”

Once we open up to someone, we put all of our trust in that person. Guess what happen if… That 

person… Leave?

The world turns upside down. To get up is like to put all the effort to make people think we are just fine.

During that moment, we are building a brand new wall. A stronger wall made my fear, sadness, depression and frustration.

Since the wall is made with all those ingredients, you need to know that it is really, really precious. 

Don’t you ever try to break the walls down. It hurts and it’s not a joke. Not at all.