Best sangat rasa dia kalau boleh banggakan Umi Abah. Nak mintak apa pun senang sebab tak rasa bersalah. Kalau sekarang nak mintak RM10 pun rasa macam "pui result pun macam tahi ada hati nak mintak itu ini."

Kau pernah jatuh tak? Jatuh tergolek yang sampai buat kau rasa tak mampu nak bangun. Rasa patah kaki tapi orang sekeliling tetap harap kau boleh menang pertandingan lumba lari? Rasa macam diri tak berguna kan? Rasa macam loser gila. Rasa macam nak jalan sambil heret muka kat lantai.

People who know me since I was a young little girl keep on judging me by my old self. Sumpah rasa macam nak jerit. Aku dah bodoh sekarang, dah tak pandai macam dulu dah. Satu tambah satu pun ambik masa 1 jam aku nak dapat jawapan dia berapa kau paham takkkk?!!!

I have this one feeling that I always fail to explain. Bila Umi Abah tanya kenapa result teruk macam ni, aku tak ada jawan nak bagi. Aku diam. Aku pun tak tahu apa dah jadi. Tiap kali Umi cakap "Umi kenal anak Umi, anak Umi mesti boleh punya.." aku rasa macam nak meraung kat situ jugak. No mum no.. I actually can't do this. I'm a loser.

Aku rasa macam dah kena curse. Aku dulu selalu benci jadi pandai. I hate being to centre of attention. I hate going up the stage receiving the awards. And here I am now, nobody knows me and the last time I got an award was 5 years ago. Haha poor me.

Sekarang aku nak cari balik diri yang lama. Bukan nak berlagak bukan nak bajet pandai. Tapi nak balas balik jasa Umi Abah. I wanna be the one like they want me to be. Walaupun Umi Abah selalu cakap "Ikut la akak nak jadi apa pun kami tak kisah.." but deep down your heart I know that theres something you're hiding from me. Boleh nampak. I can tell how happy you are when I got an offer for Geomatic course.

Ahh, I miss you Umi Abah :(